I’m sure its no surprise to you that you are my first bully to be named. I still to this day have no idea why you felt the need to do what you did, which really if we’re honest, was where this all started.
So lets start at the beginning?
You called me on the 19th February 2014. The day before you had been at a porn shoot where you told me that you did not want to shoot with Ryan James, however you owed money to Agency Atlantic. You told me how both Ryan and Sarah from AA backed you into a corner and coerced you into shooting against your will.
I clarified with you that what you were describing to me, sexual coercion which is rape. You confirmed that was correct, and you asked me for my advice.
I said to you that this was a tricky situation for me to be placed in, I absolutely supported you and I believed you without evidence. But Ryan James and I were going through an incredibly messy separation and really as just a fellow Pornstar what could I really do? I suggested that you contact Popporn Productions to get their advice, which you did. Consequently Ryan lost his job with them.
Do you remember this call? Here is the Stat Dec from the person you made the call in front of. Obviously I’ve removed sensitive information, however I still hold the full stat dec and if you’d like me to provide it to you, of course I will.
A couple of weeks later I noticed via social media that you were at a music festival with Ryan. Which struck me as odd. I am a rape victim, I have also been sexually assaulted in porn, where what we agreed to do, wasn’t really what transpired. Every person that has either raped me or pushed my boundaries on a porn shoot by way of coercion or just flat out doing whatever they wanted to without my consent, well I don’t have them in my life. I certainly wouldn’t be at a music festival with them. So I knew something was up.
I called Popporn Productions to tell them my suspicions; I know that this resulted in you losing your shooting place with them as well as Ryan. Which we see in this below email from Popporn.
Now the rumour that you and Ryan have spread about me is that I have used rape allegations or false rape allegations to hurt peoples careers.
Is that what I did?
To me I took your disclosure on face value and gave you advice.
You then took my advice and called Popporn to report Ryan, which led to Ryan being blacklisted.
I then noticed that something was up and told Popporn that I think there’s more to this story, and that it wasn’t fair (as much as I disliked Ryan at the time) that he was being punished for something that didn’t seem to have happened.
From where I sit Lucie, it has been you who used false rape allegations to harm Ryan’s career. Then it backfired, and it harmed your career.
If only you hadn’t involved me to begin with. If only the story stopped there right?
But back to reality.
In July 2014, I was voted by the new SWOP Board to become their first President. I get it, you didn’t like this. I don’t blame you either, when I found out you were talking about consent at your university, I nearly puked. But the difference between you and me Lucie, is that I didn’t contact your university with the evidence that you use false rape allegations to progress your career, which therefore makes you an incredibly poor choice of speaker on the topic of consent. I just moved on. But back to you.
In July that year Ryan James decided to contact SWOP to make a complaint about me being the president. As part of his complaint he decided to rehash your false rape allegations as an example of why I would be unfit to be the president. I will never understand why I wanted to protect you at this point. But I did. And honestly, I wanted to write off what had transpired between us in February 2014 and leave that in the past. So we had the following text message conversation.
This is another point where it all could have ended. But it didn’t apparently my “not wanting to rehash the past” so we all could just move forward with our careers was not ok with you.
So then we get to your social media presence. Now have I made digs at you on social media. Absolutely, I am not without sin here. I can’t remember exactly when, possibly in 2014, I did refer to you as Batman and spoke about how you use false rape allegations to get ahead. And that was shit behaviour on my part for sure. But also something you are guilty of too.
Now after the events of 2014, I retreated away from the sex industry, I focused on my own business, I didn’t really do much in the porn industry. I focused on moving my life forward. But the rumours that you started didn’t stop. It had now spread, I was getting cyber attacked frequently and it seemed no amount of moving forward, staying silent or ignoring things were working.
So I called you out for the part you played in all this in December 2015. I wanted that to be the end of things. Of course you fought back on your social media account and for the following 2 weeks things got way worse. But I really wanted that to be the end of the saga. You said your piece, I said mine, great the world knows we hate each other lets all move forward in our separate ways.And that blog post is still up, you can read that here.
But here we are nearly two and half years after what really should have been the end of our great feud. But you felt the need to rehash everything again, completely unprovoked by me in March this year.
I announced on social media on April 8th that I had been a victim of crime in late March and consequently shut my entire business down. Then after working hard to try to get through my PTSD and all of the associated legal and police stuff that comes with being a victim of crime. I decided that whilst I may never be able to return to sex work, let me try to return to some form of a public career to try to get my life back on track. It has been super clear to everyone that since the crime which took place on 25 March 2018, I have been struggling.
So this could have been another moment where you could have chosen to just back off and leave me alone. I remember earlier this year when you received rough treatment at the hospital for your mental health condition, I also remember when you lost Scully. Did I use these times when you were vulnerable to kick you whilst you were down? No.
But you, decided to take to twitter again in May, just in case I wasn’t vulnerable enough to have another go.
Lucie Bee, you started the rumours against me. You have perpetuated the cyber attacks against me. And even when I’ve called stop, this is now really having a negative impact to my mental health you kept going.
For these reasons, Lucie Bee you are the first of the 4 Bullies I’m naming this week. Your behaviour towards me is unjustified, its malicious, its cruel and you’ve refused to stop.
Please move on with your life, please stop discussing me and spreading rumours about me.